Letter to my unborn son Pt II

This is gonna sound bad but I didn't even want to do this post. It's actually not as bad as you are probably thinking because the main reason is: I can't keep my composure even thinking about completing this post. I knew this day would come, I just didn't know when. I had told your daddy that I didn't want to do it because I can't even keep it together. But I'm going to blame it on all of the pregnancy hormones that you're having me go through.

While your daddy has covered your future in his letter to you, I just want to talk about our time together while you're at home in my womb for the next 6 months. I know this extremely special time that only we have together won't last too much longer come October 21st.

The day we found out about you was on Valentine's Day. I didn't even realize I wanted you for so long that I was very anxious to take a test. Not because of the possibility it would be positive, but I didn't want to see a negative. In fact, I was dreading taking one and your dad had to talk some sense into me on why I should. Since it was his idea, I actually made him go check the test when it was done. Lo and behold, we had our very first positive test! My focus for our time together is positivity (positive vibes, positive energy, positive environment, positive life etc). From the moment I knew you were inside of me, I just wanted to make sure you were going to be surrounded by nothing but love and support and it starts with me. I won't lie, it's kind of hard to think positive thoughts 24/7 when you have made your mommy nauseous, body parts hurt and ache, and my ever changing appetite and food aversions. But with the help of your dad and the rest of your family and our support system I'm getting there.

Since we are sharing my body, you pretty much know me more than I know myself because you are on the inside. That automatically makes you the most special thing in the world to me. Everyday I pray that my entire body and womb are abundantly blessed and healthy so you can continue to prosper the way God has intended you to at each and every moment. I'm not sure how things will change once you get here but I know you are already changing my life as I speak. I constantly wonder what it's like for you to be inside of my womb and how you are doing. Every chance I get to hear your heartbeat, it gives me joy that everything is going to be just fine. All I think about is giving you the best and that's not limited to material things. More importantly, it's giving you the best version of myself, the best environment, the best relationship and marriage with your daddy, the best family and friends, the best love and the best of everything now and when you arrive.

I can't wait until you get here but I don't want to rush this precious process. It's like we have our own secret club and only me and you are allowed in it. I want to bask in this miraculous time as much as possible and try my hardest to savor the moments because I will only get this opportunity once. I'm starting to understand how my mom and other moms felt experiencing this more and more everyday. I thank God for you changing my life. His timing is perfect but you know this already. Your estimated due date wasn't supposed to be a second sooner or later and we are so ready for you. If you think the love stops at your daddy and I, just wait until you meet your grandparents, aunts, uncles and the rest of our extended family and friends. The positive vibes and love I was telling you about earlier is overwhelming at times but it is definitely in a good way. It's like when you have so much good of something that you don't even know how to handle it and you feel like you're gonna burst, it's that type of overwhelming.

Baby Z, keep growing into the healthy and perfect little human and I look forward to the many milestones throughout the next 6 months. Once you grace us with your presence, that will be a whole new chapter and I'm going to enjoy the chapter we are in right now. Also, my birthday is today so I would really appreciate if you show your mom some love and lay off on the symptoms a little bit. I know I'm probably asking for too much because you're really busy growing in there but I thought I would try.

I love you and I will talk to you soon.
-Mommy

"I knew you before I formed you in your Mother's Womb. Before you were born, I set you apart" - Jer. 1:5