My little man is one month old today

Bath time for Baby Zi

I fed my little man for the first time tonight.

I may or may not be tearing up. I'll tell you one thing: being a father makes you soft as hell. Zion is 3wks and one day. Where the hell has that time gone?...

It's been 36 hours since I've seen my little man..

His mom took him down to Naples to surprise everyone on her grandma's birthday. 

There's a saying about when you miss someone, it's feels like you're missing a piece of your heart or a piece of yourself. 

But that saying doesn't describe the way I feel at all. It's not doing my feelings any justice. 

I feel like I'm missing my entire heart. Like I can't breathe right bc the air isn't sustainable. Like I can hardly walk straight up bc my equilibrium has been distorted. Up is down, left is right, my sense of direction needs calibrating. 

I miss my little man so fucking much (I miss mommy too). This is the longest I've gone and hopefully the longest I'll ever go for a very long while.